Ugly Art Dolls

The Christian bible says there is nothing new under the sun.Which is true in a way but that being said I don’t think it’s totally impossible to actually be UNIQUE.
I am easily board and I also work very hard at my art and ever other aspect of my life and don’t feel the need to copy things that have already been done.
It gets annoying after a bit to have people constantly picking apart where I am actually unique,if I do things for shock value *I guess I run around the house all day trying to shock the squirrel and house cats* or if I Appropriate things from other people and try and act like Little Richard and say I invited rock and roll *Little Richard pretty much did and have I mentions him,myself and Walt Disney have the same birth date?* I was a only child and my brother’s and sisters were pretty much my pets.So when you are a only child in a small town where you are totally unlike everybody else *I didn’t fit in with the normal kids because I was weird,and I didn’t fit in with the weird kids because they were doofs that were wild and fucked,drank and did drugs *things I still don’t do*.I am now 32 and STILL do not fit in anywhere.I certainly didn’t set out to be that way,as it’s hard to deal with life where you don’t fit in with ANY group.Sort of like kids that are born gay or trans,they sometimes and some days not to fucking stoked about it either,the reason being sometimes it FUCKING SUCKS! People will sometimes wrongly assume I’m trying to be weird,or that a trans person wants attention so they are trans.Yea we all want to go out of our way to stick the fuck out and have to worry about getting our asses kicked ect,and in the case of some have a hard time getting a job because they don’t fit into dress codes or people will fuck with them.Thank God I run my own business where I work in my PJ’s and can be abusive to anybody who gives me shit. It’s especially annoying when people are giving you their 2 cents and their critique of ME that are know it all’s who ain’t accomplished a DAMN thing,but are delusional in their own heads! I have been very blessed by the spirits to have gotten my artwork and even my modeling out there a bit,and also been able to sell even in horrid economic times like now.If anybody makes a fuss over meeting me I will tell them it’s no big deal I’m just a hood rat *and still am* from Louisiana and I’m ghetto as all hell. I can’t get up in the morning and walk outside and see the ghetto where I live and think “Hot damnnnn I’m soooo much better then everybody else and I’m such a wonderful famous success.” I see myself as the hood rat that I am,and I consider myself “successful” only because of the fact I can buy food and pay bills with my artwork and again I’m blessed and lucky that people even take notice of my art and I know I am very very lucky and very very grateful for that.I also know that without the help of the Loa,Orisha and other spirits I’d be NOTHING.I didn’t do anything amazing with my own hands,I’m just a messenger and they use me as a vehicle to get their points across.More people need to look at themselves and not have such giant grandiose ideas about themselves.I’m all for ego,ego is what makes us defend ourselves and what we think to be right.But ego shouldn’t get to the point of somebody seeing themselves as a major figure in anything if they are selling cans or cutting grass for pot money.
You are to be judged by a jury of your peers as I said I grew up as a major outsider my peers or the people I consider my peers are people like to mention a few.They were like me grew up in small towns and sort of became what they are by being this giant mishmash of all the things they liked,things they REALLY ACTUALLY LIKES not what other kids considered cool when they were growing up.Or because they were living in a big city and wanted to fit in with a clique,they are also people who happened to becomes successful for being such a mishmash of different things.Not because they were the coolest clone out of the clique. I bitch about having my dolls copied,which I in no way imagine that people are doing that.I even have people mail me pic’s of other people’s work asking if it’s mine or if I sell through that site. Anybody can look and I have proof through posting which are dated,pic’s which are dated and in some cases things being (c).Which boils down in my head not that OMG everybody thinks I’m so fucking BRILLIANT ,no it boils down to some fucker is trying to take my job that I make a living off of.If somebody claims they are just soooo much more original more so then I am.Then show me proof people are trying to steal out of YOUR mouth?You and your magical unicorn fantasy land aren’t that original or great which is why YOU don’t make a living doing what every grandiose thing YOU THINK you do!
Do you people think I get some kind of brownie points be totally weird crap like being affiliated with Satanism but being obsessed with Jesus?Or being this totally wild heathen that doesn’t smoke,drink,do drugs or sleep around.You think I get some kind of thumbs up from all the other subculture people that when I’m offered drugs I say no thank you I don’t do drugs?No I get looked at like a fucking pariah .Which if I have 2 fucks would bother me.But again because I actually AM my OWN person it doesn’t bother me and I have learned to accept that I don’t fit in ANYWHERE!
And better yet if you are picking ME apart I must be a hell of allot more interesting then you know it all’s!
Ugly Shyla
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